Friday, February 28, 2014


The truth is subjective to what the lonely lets in.

Emalyn Spicer has lived with it for a long time. She thinks it goes back further than her memories do. She knows it goes back further than the OCD.

When she arrives at college, her OCD's and the lonely refuse to let her have her wish to be normal.

When she meets Sebastian and starts to fall for him, she lets herself believe it's possible to outrun the things chasing her from the past. But how to you get away from the things inside of you? How do you run from yourself?

Just as she gives up and succumbs to the lonely, the unthinkable happens. She finds herself once again trapped in the dark, once again held against her will.

This time she meets the lonely head on. In the darkest corners of her mind, she discovers there is more to her world than she ever imagined. She discovers that the lonely was there for her, protecting her from herself and her secrets.

How far would you go to find yourself?

This is a dark and captivating novel, tread lightly
Kindle Edition356 pages
Published February 2nd 2013 by Tara Brown Publishing 
Source: received via Netgalley in exchange for review
Purchase: Goodreads | Amazon | B&N

First, please don't be afraid of this book. I realize that the cover has more paranormal vibes than new adult romance, but it is indeed geared toward a new adult/romance audience. And I have to say...I am over the top shocked at what I just read. I really connected with it in a way that I'm not sure that a lot of people did on Goodreads (as in I think there is a lot of mixed feelings about it) but I have hope that you might at least try out a sample because it's goodness just crept up and bit me. Hard. I liked it. Yes. This is definitely one that requires an open mind and a little patience, but it's so worth it.

Emalyn is starting college with her best friend from highschool and immediately you realize that she has some pretty heavy issues. The blurb tells you that she is OCD but I was seriously in awe of how well the author portrayed her having this illness. Instead of it just being these repetitive actions that she had to complete, we got to be inside her head for it with her feelings of loathing of herself for having to do it the absolute gut wrenching she went through at the thought of touching someone or someone touching her. And that is just the tip of the iceberg for the insanity of this book. Being inside of Em's head and seeing how frustrated she was with herself and yet how dependent she was on the comfort zone she created was very interesting. I enjoyed reading this unique perspective.

She is trying out college and tries out dating this really cute, nice guy...but there is an anonymous voice that is in contact with her constantly. Her benefactor. The person who helps her pay for stuff and keep her safe with a personal chauffeur included. Who the heck is this dude and what the hell is going on were constant questions battling it out in my head. And that basically ends any of what we can tell you.... 

Em's friends--Shell and Stuart and Sebastian--are all so good and patient and eager to help her achieve the 'normal' that she so dearly once. They also add to the intriguing events that happen around the 25% mark. Meanwhile we have this mysterious voice/texter who seems to know everything about her and seems to be the ultimate control freak. All of this contributes to some interesting stuff that I cannot really say any more about without ruining this read.

I really enjoyed this book (and Shelley is reading this a little bit later than I am writing I hope she does too...can't wait for her thoughts) and even though there is some far fetched-ness to a few plot didn't keep me from devouring it...because why can't it be far fetched I ask you? Emalyn has a huge journey to go on for this story, and regardless of what was happening external to her, her journey was epic and I loved finding out about it to the very last page. It was a very good read; I really enjoyed it.

Courtney: 5 Stars
Shelley: 4 1/2 Stars

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1 comment

  1. Hmm... I'm scared of this one. I don't think I would have been until you told me not to be scared, but now I am. haha.


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